True Feelings For U Dear..Hmmm

I cant seem to understand just why u always do this to me.


Its like an neverending story of pain and lies.

Lies that u know I always found the truth in.

But yet u still do it.



Am I not good enough? I wonder.

I cry, think hurt,and dream.

I image u so different. So changed

So faithful and loving.

And then I wake up, and realize a dream is just

a dream something I strive for but dont mean

I will get.



What I want is what I need.

I want him, the man I'm deeply inlove with

The man thats always been there for me in all

the ways other then a husband. A friend.

Hes always listens, loves and cares no matter what.

But what I need is a husband not a friend. A man to hold

to look into my eyes and know that no one will ever break us.



I just dont know how much more I can take.

I just dont think im strong enough.

I feel so hurt and sad inside. So lost and so alone.

I have nothing. I am nothing. I want more.

I want to feel beautiful again, loved again, cherished again.

I want to be everything. I want him to see me as everything.

The only one for him, the one he cant live without. The one he wants to fall asleep with and wake up with everyday. I want to be that girl. Hes one and only.

Poems

Ask me not whether I love you



For you already know.


Ask me not why I stare


For it must clearly show.


Ask me not why every night


My eyes glare your way.


Ask me not why day light shines


When you stroll my way.


Ask me not what time I'm coming


For I'm always there with you.


Ask me not how far we're going


Or whether not knowing


I'm falling in love with you.


Ask me not how much I need you


For you know this, too.


Tell me only one thing darling:


That you love me, too.

Poems

I love you more and more,


each and every single day.

In my heart I know one thing for certain:

You're perfect in every way.



I love you like the Sun loves to say, "Good Morning",

and like the Moon loves to say, "Good Night",

When our eyes close and our lips meet,

I know everything is right.



You're beautiful face is the only one,

I ever want to see,

And one more thing you should never forget,

You simply mean the world to me.

I Miss You..

Happy

Wow...Heee...Im Happy Right Now Wif My Syg Chuck Kush..Weeeeeee...=)
He Alwaez Makes Me Happy Although He Alwaez Like To Buli Me Till Majok
But Still Im Happy When Im Wif Him..Hope This Will Last Long..Dun Wanna
Lose Him..=)
Dunnoe Wat I Will Do If I Lose Him..Missing Him Alot Sey...Hmmm..Waiting
For The Time To Mit Him Again..^_^

Crying Out Loud

Im CRYING all night thinking bout u alwaez..why u do this to me?wat i do till u hurt me like this?i feel like shit..
i dunnoe why this hearts feel so damned pain..more pain than the pain at my back..i feel like wanna die..
allah knp kau tk amek nyawa ku saje dari aku terus merana begini..setelah pegi nye zali dia yg membuat ku bahagia,memberi ku kebahagiaan yg telah lama aku ingin kn tapi kenape begini akhirnye???aku betol2 rasa kehilangan..kebahagian ku sudah hilang..
tuhan aku benar2 syg kn dia..aku rindu kn dia..aku rindu kn semua tentang dia..tiap mlm ku akan menatap gmbr dia yg ade kt com aku..aku akan menangis hingga mata ku merah...hati ku da tk kuat..aku betol2 da rasa ilang semangat ku..aku boleh jadi giler..gilerrrr!!!
skrg nie aku maseh menangis..aku rindu kn dia..sgt2 tp knp begitu susah??kerana aku tunggu dia mengalah agar jumpe aku tapi nampak nye dia tetap ego tknk jumpe aku..yela aku sape kn..aku manusia yg hina..sape yg nk jumpe..=(

Missing Sumting?

Haizz.....I Juz Dunnoe Why I Miss E Touch Of Luv From Sumone..
A Hugs N A Love From A Boyfriend..Haha..Tipu Ku Kate Ku Tak
Rindu Saat2 Seperti Ku Bersama Zali..Disyg,Dimanja,Diperhatikan,
Diberi Perhatian,Dipeluk Dan Dicium..Cinta Mudah Datang Dan
Juga Mudah Pergi..Aku Tak Tahu Kenapa Orang Suke
Mempermainkan Hati Aku...Dulu Syg2..Bila Lama2 Melayang....
Dulu Hi Hi...Bila Lama2 Gudbye..Apa Yang Mereka Dapat
Dengan Melakukan Itu?Mudah Benar Mereka Berubah..Mudah
Benar Mereka Berpaling Arah..Mudah Benar Mereka Berkata
Cinta,Dan Mudah Benar Mereka Berdusta..Aku Tidak Mengata
Lelaki Saja..Perempuan Mahupon Lelaki Sama.,.Aku Sedih
Kenapa Aku Selalu Jadi Mangsa Lelaki2 Yang Aku Sayang?Tak
Ada Kah Yang Boleh Setia Pada Ku?Itu Saja Yang Ku Minta,
Susah Sangat Kah Permintaan Ku?Haizz..Aku Rindu,Rindu
Kenangan Ku Dulu..Hati Ku Sunyi Sangat..Ya Allah Tolong Lah
Hamba Mu Yang Lemah Ini...=(

Luv??I Miss Him But I Noe Dream Juz Wont Come True..

Love??Shud i believe in love?Haizzz..Lepas ape terjadi aku rasa seperti hilang arah lepas si DIA mengecewakan hati aku..
Bile aku teringatkan DIA,Aku akan menangis..Tak tau uh kenape aku maken sensitive..Walau kawan2 aku usik2 or nyanyi lagu sedih pasti aku akan rasa nak menangis dan airmata mengalir..Walau ku cube menahan dan kuat kan hati tapi tak tau kenape gitu susah nk tahan..Emosi aku tak dapat aku tahan hingga aku menangis didepan kawan2 aku,dah ku cuba tahan tapi airmata tetap mengalir..kenape dengan aku nie?gaaah!!!nak makan pon tak ade selera nak tido aku takleh walau mata ku da pedih..aku boleh jadi giler kalau lama2 macam nie..=(

RoyaLBloodZ Gathering Swimming At Chinese Garden

Saturday 10April2010 Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....Today Have Fun Swimming Wif Them..First Memang Mendak..Dlm MRT Tk Perasan
Da Sampai Chinese Garden Till Terbypass Station Chinese Garden..Terpaksa Turun The Next Station Than
Naek The Other Side..Haiz...Sampai Je Pukol 1.15pm,Nampak Wanie With Uncle Ayie..LOL..Da Duduk
Tunggu Kan Laen2 Sampai..Da Tunggu Till Going 2pm Aru Lady And Java Sampai..Den Tunggu Kan Tasha
Lak Sampai Kite Duduk2 Java Makan Nasi Lemak Den Java Beli Air Kat Cheers..Kite Duduk Minum Jap
Sampai Lah Tasha Sampai..Den We Proceed Gi Swimming Pool..Weeeeee..Tak Sabar Nak Gi Swimming
Pool..Bile Da Sampai Ape Lagi Bayar La Ticket Masok..LOL Bayar Student Nye..LOL..Bile Ku Masok
Terpegun Jap Coz First Time Nampak Swimming Pool Besar..Wooooohooo..Tukar Kai Short N Sleeveless
And Simpan Barang Dalam Locker..Kene 40 Sen Shey..Hehehehe...Da Sampai Tak Pasal2 Kene Buli Tolak
Dalam Air..Macam Siak Kan?Hehehehehehehe..But Really Had So Much Fun Wif Them..Oh Ya Lupa Lak
Masa Reach Pat Swimming Pool Kite Mit Q And Laydeelion Kat Situ Bab Mit Dorg Kat Situ..Sedih Pat Is
Ade Pool Kite Tkleh Mandi..Hanya Swimming Costume And Bikini Je Leh..Me,Tasha And Wanie Tkleh..
Sedih Kan..Lepas Tu HD(Abg Bukit) And Kis(Partner)Pon Smpai Dorg Pon Salin And Swim..Weeee...
Partner Pon Kene Sabo Tolak Dalam Air..LOL Cian Dia..But Me Tk Masok Cmpur,I Wont Sabo Her..LOL!
Den Lepas Habis Swimming And Salin Baju Ape Lagi?Amek Gambar La..LOL..Den We Proceed To Teh
Tarik Makan..But Tasha Alek Dulu Den LayDeeLion Alek Lak Masa Da Sampai Teh Tarik..Hmm..Yummy
My Nasi Ayam Black Pepper..Pedas..Wif Hot Milo..Fuyyyoooo!!LOL..Lepas Makan Lepak Jap Dorg Smoke
N Haus Bobal N Amek Gambar Bawak Blok Beli Coke Uh..Hehehehe..Lepas Tu Kol 10Plus Jalan Uh Alek..
Q Alek Sendiri Bab Rumah Dekat,Kite Naek Bus Gi Jurong East Naek MRT,Me N Wanie Naek Same Train
At Green Line..Lady,Java,HD n Kis Naek Opp Side Train Gi Red Line..Sampai Rumah Je Fuyyyoo Penat
Gilerr..Hehehehehehe..Tu Je Tired But Had Fun..=)
               ALAMAK
*BlacKQueenZ Aka HoneYMunchY(Me)
*GoddessBloodz Aka LadySetanZ
*GodBloodz Aka KingSetanZ8
*PrincessSetanz Aka Wanie
*PrinceSetanz Aka DaddySetanz
*PrincessTasha Aka Tasha
*PuTriSetanz Aka Quraisyah
*LaydeeLion
*HighDeFiNaSi(Abg Bukit)
*KisYaNaCiiNe(Partner)

Today

Today On 23 FabruaryTuesay Im Going Out Wif My Cuzin Accompany Her Going Photo Shoot..
Hmm..Juz Drop By To Type Abit About Today..Hmmm..Kinda Miss Him But..I Must Trow My
Feeling Far Far Away From My Life..Hmmm...I Got The Feeling That Only I Who Feel This Way..
But I Wont Force Him To Love Me Because U Cant Force Love..If U Love That Person Doesnt
Meant U Have To Own Him..I Juz Will Alwaez Wish Him For His Happiness N Wish Him Gud
Luck In Whatever He Do..But I Really Miss Him...I Really Do N I Really Meant What I Said...=(
Mungkin Ni La Takdir Yang Aku Harus Sentiasa Tempuh,Tiapkali Aku Mencintai Seseorg,Tak Pernah
Cinta Ku Berbalas..Aku Sedar Tentang Diri Ku Ini Banyak Sangat Kekurangan..
K Laah GTG..Nk Kluar Skrg Kang Aku Lambat Kene Bebel Lak Ngan Sdr Aku..LOL..Haizz...Bye...
Assalamualaikum...

Find,Who,Wait...

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot......
ADE KE?HAIZZZ...HIS CUTE NOT HENSEM...=)
who calls you back when you hang up on him....
PENA KE?HE SELDOM CALL ME...=(
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.......
WILL HE DO DAT TO ME?
wait for the guy who kisses your forehead....
KISH MY FOREHEAD N I WILL LUV U..
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats...
ALAMAK SWEATS EHK?MASAM LAK ANTI..LOL
who holds your hand in front of his friends.....
NO ONE DID DAT TO ME..=(
wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you....
I NOE IM LUCKY TO NOE HIM.
wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's her, or that's him'...
I WILL IF HE REALLY BE MINE..=)

Waiting..Still Waiting...

Hmmm.....Assalamualaikum...Hmm..Haiz...Im Back Again At Here..Typing About
My Stupid N Broing Life...Haizz......Bored Bored Bored..Waitng Waiting N Still
Waiting For Him..Dunnoe Why I Still Wanna Wait For Him..Juz Love Him Too
Much Kot?Hmmm....Thinking About Him Alwaez Even He Is Away Not In Front
Of Me...Juz Cant Stop Thinking About Him..Haizz....Whats Wrong With Me?
Loving Sumone Secretly N Also Wait For Him As He Didnt Even Noe About It...
Juz Too Scared To Confess To Him About My Feelings For Him...Never Ever In
My Life I Will Tell About My Feelings..Haiiyaaa...Hate Myself For Being Too Shy
Juz To Confess My Feelings To Anyone...I Have To Leave It To Fate,If He Is
Really Meant For Me,He Will Be Mine One Day..But If His Not Meant For Me
Pls God Make Me Forgot About My Feeling Pls Because I Dun Wanna Get Hurt
Again..Dun Want To Feel It Again...Enough Is Enough...No More Hurts Pls....
Hmmm...=(

Am I Ready?

Hmmm....Not Sure With My Heart..I Do,Really Do Like U So Much But Im Scared,U Serious
Like Me Or Its Juz A Like As A Cyber Love?Do U Really Luv Me?I Also Dunnoe Till Now Im
Confused..I Love U But Sumtimes I Alwaez Feel Scared To Get E Feeling Of Losing Sumone
Again..But Still Now Also I Already Scared Of Losing U..U Alwaez Make Me Smile Whenever
I Chat Wif Ya..Even U Are Not A Perfect Guy But Perfect Is BullShit Coz No One Is Perfect
In This World..Even Theres Sumone Waiting But I Dunnoe Why Still U In My Hearts..
Haizzz...Stupid Me Rite?Scared To Confess As Im Too Scared...Laugh At Me If U Want..I
Noe..Who Am I To U..Haizz....Knowing U Makez Me Smile N Makes Me 100 Reason TO
Laugh When I Remember Our Mitting..Its Alwaez Makes Me Smile Whenever I Remember
U...But Duh..I Dunnoe If Im In Ur Hearts As Well,I Dunnoe If U Feel E Same Way Like I
Do..I Really Hope Have When Im In This RelationShip,It Will Last Till My Last Breath..
Living Hapi In The End With My Love One But Will My Dreams Come True?Haizz..All Is
Fate I Have Juz Leave It To Fate...But I DO Luv Him SO Much..Thats All I Can Said....

Will I?

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku..Ampuni Lah Segala Dosa2 Ku Dan Kluarga Ku...Aku Tahu Kadang Aku Nie Dikatakan Anak Yang Jahat Tapi Tak Tahu Bapak Aku Seperti Benci Kan Aku..Aku Rasa Kadang2 Macam Disingkirkan..Aku Boleh Nampak Dia Lebih Ambil Peduli Pasal Abg Aku Dari Aku..Tiap Malam Pasti Aku Akan Duduk Di Dalam Bilik Keseorangan..Kerana Tiada Lagi *Dia* Untuk Menemani Ku..

Cerita Cinta Dalam Hidup Aku Tak Pernah Kekal...Dia Janji Takkan Lukakan Hati Ku Dan Akan Sayang Aku Selalu Tapi Dia Seperti Dah Tak Ambil Peduli Pasal Aku Tetapi Selepas Aku Mintak Dilepaskan Dia Tudo Aku Ade Laki2 Laen..Sampai Sekarang Nie Dia Maseh Taknak Lepaskn Aku..Aku Bingung Betol ke Dia Sayang Kn Aku?Kalau Betol Kenape Bile Aku Maseh Dengan Dia,Dia Jarang Cari Aku,Asal Aku Ajak Jumpe Ade Aje Alasan Dia..Aku Tak Perlu La Duet Dia Kalau Nak Mit..Asyik Kate Malu Kluar Takde Duet...Asal Aku Dapat Jumpe Dia Itu Suda Cukup Bagi Aku..Biar Lah Aku Ikat Perut Aku Tk Kisah Yang Penting Aku Dapat Jumpa Dia..Haizz...
Nak Cari Lelaki Yang Setia Susah..Susah Untuk Aku Percaya Lagi Kerana Sudah Terlalu Ramai Lelaki Kata Setia Tapi Belakang Maen Belakang Aku..Habis Madu Sepah Dibuang Kata Pepatah..Selepas Memberi Ku Harapan Dia Buang Aku Macam Sampah..

Bila Kah Aku Akan Jumpa Dengan Putera Idaman Ku?Aku Tau Keburukan Aku Banyak..Aku Kuat Majok,Sensitive,Cepat Marah N Kadang2 Macam Budak2 Punya Perangai Mungkin Kerana Dari Kecik Aku Manja..Kadang2 Aku Majok Kerana Aku Dah Kurang Perhatian Dari Keluarga Sebab Itu Aku Suka Majok..Sensitive Sudah Dalam Darah Aku Dari Kecik Cepat Menangis Kalau Hati Betol2 Terluka Hingga Ramai Penah Nampak Aku Menangis..Cepat Marah Mungkin Kadang2 Aku Boleh Terbawa2 Dengan Masalah Di Rumah Hingga Aku Cepat Naek Darah..Budak2 Lak Aku Da Memang Gitu Kerana Mungkin Kerana Di Rumah Aku Di Layan Macam Budak Kecik...Haizz....

Cinta Benar2 Buat Aku Tawar Hati Untuk Bercinta..Kalau Benar Ehk Ade Laki2 Suke Me Tolong Pandai2 Amek Hati Me..I Dunnoe If My Heart Can Melt..I Dun Nid Ur Money To Make Me Hapi,I Dun Nid Ur Vehicle To Make Me Impress...Juz Ur Luv N Hearts That Will Stay By My Side Alwaez.. (haizz..i dunnoe if there is sumone could make me stand back in my own feet..could bring me light when im in darkness,could be a dolphin to save me from drowning..could be my firefighter juz to save me from getting burn..Could Be My Prince To Stay In My Heart Alwaez...?)U Make Me Luv U,I Will Stay Luving U And U Will Stay In My Hearts Alwaez...Thats My Promise,But Will U Do That For Me Too?Haizz... =(