True Feelings For U Dear..Hmmm

I cant seem to understand just why u always do this to me.


Its like an neverending story of pain and lies.

Lies that u know I always found the truth in.

But yet u still do it.



Am I not good enough? I wonder.

I cry, think hurt,and dream.

I image u so different. So changed

So faithful and loving.

And then I wake up, and realize a dream is just

a dream something I strive for but dont mean

I will get.



What I want is what I need.

I want him, the man I'm deeply inlove with

The man thats always been there for me in all

the ways other then a husband. A friend.

Hes always listens, loves and cares no matter what.

But what I need is a husband not a friend. A man to hold

to look into my eyes and know that no one will ever break us.



I just dont know how much more I can take.

I just dont think im strong enough.

I feel so hurt and sad inside. So lost and so alone.

I have nothing. I am nothing. I want more.

I want to feel beautiful again, loved again, cherished again.

I want to be everything. I want him to see me as everything.

The only one for him, the one he cant live without. The one he wants to fall asleep with and wake up with everyday. I want to be that girl. Hes one and only.